Xindi and I fooled around with our japanese clay set to make some really cute stuff. It took us HOURS.

It smells slightly of nail polish, and it's a bitch to take out from the mould (even after spreading a thin layer of cooking oil on it)

TA-DA!


Top view.. Xindi made most of it. I was having a hard time digging out the leftover clay from the stupid 'machine'


Side view. Damn, the flash is BRIGHT.


Another weird bright view of it.

So fricking adorable.  I made that weird cupcake, yellow cake and that pink thing like looks like a cake with a nipple. 

Xindi did the rest of the stuff, plus a cute orange macaroon (bottom right) fashioned from her own hands WITHOUT the mould from my leftover cupcake base. I didn't take a proper picture of it.

Gotta wait for at least TWO days before it dries and we can start to use it as handphone charms!

I still can't figure out all the functions for the camera. Argh. Manual is damn wordy.

update:

found more pictures. had to resize them. It's all the dimensions were in 3648 X 2736 -.-  Only uploaded those that aren't repetitive.


Without flash.  Now it looks dull. A slightly better look of the macaroon..



I used the function where you can take a flash and without flash picture.

One's dull the other's too bright. I need to read on how to adjust the damn lighting.

I've always thought of having a nice clear future, a straight straight path to the end (what else but death?)

Gah. I hate it whenever the path deviates

I still miss my previous job. Stable, exciting (in a horrible panicky way), and i KNOW my job scope.

Now. I'm still meandering around in the dark. I don't know my manager's moods, I don't know the system well, I don't know whether what i've done is 100% correct.

Sigh.

Random hot guy for distraction:

Although it was his last day at work, we walked together in silence on the way home. He could have felt my sudden turn of mood and did not attempt to talk me, while I just didn't bother to break the silence.

As we  were about to reach the point where we usually split up to our respective bus stop, I had this sudden absurd urge to just cry. Hastily said 'Good luck.' and quickly walked away before he could reply. When i was crossing the overhead bridge, trying to look for the moon or just anything bright to take away my attention.. there were none. At that moment, tears just welled up and i couldn't stop it. I just cried.

I feel horrible horrible horrible. I will miss him so...

Just that i still have flashbacks on those times when he turned cold and i couldn't help him at his times of need, that made me regret not doing anything to prevent the gap between from widening.  And as I can't be a real good and reliable friend to him, I think it's best that he be gone from me. Else i'll keep regretting and blaming myself for things i have done, or i have not done. It isn't good for me.

Ah julia, it's just so hard to forget him like you told me too.. I need more bishies! Yamada~

I worry too much. Damn, the stress that's getting into me..

Sigh.  I feel sick of life and work.  I wish i can pull myself out of this again.

And a pretty fast conversation (time's precious!) with a friend made me acknowledge something.. which was pretty obvious, but i did not dare to admit. It went like a very fast campy romance plot.

Me: Blah blah blah (a quick summary of that colleague of mine.. my confused feelings, etc.)

(slight pause)

She: So, you like him right?

Me: (Paused. Pondered. And finally acknowledged it) Yeah.. I do..

Well well. But now there's nothing i can do about it.  I'm cutting all.. 'bridging' (as per dear juz_ana's choice of word ;) ) he had attempted and forget the whole thing. As time or life permits.

By the way, i had never liked guys who drink too much. May he crawl back into the bottle of his. *BLEAH*

Now, leave me as i hide in the cavern of mine - books.

I swear I did nothing to encourage it (cross my heart), but life's events is becoming more and more manga-like.  Not those shoujo (nor shounen, even more's the pity) kind, but.. more towards josei?

Makes me wish i have lesser acquaintances, which therefore leads to lesser problems or situations that will arise due to some catastrophe or personal conflict with a someone/Friend of mine.

Hah, dream on.

Still... Makes life a little more interesting, ja?