Snagged fromjuz_ana 's entry [here] (eew, jin?? just, no. eew :P)

Although hers is on JE boys. I'll make mine mostly Japanese-rock. heh.

( Ho ho, guess how many Gackt are there?  )
I need to read less Jessica Hall. Hehe. Her impossible... scenes.

I've always thought of having a nice clear future, a straight straight path to the end (what else but death?)

Gah. I hate it whenever the path deviates

I still miss my previous job. Stable, exciting (in a horrible panicky way), and i KNOW my job scope.

Now. I'm still meandering around in the dark. I don't know my manager's moods, I don't know the system well, I don't know whether what i've done is 100% correct.

Sigh.

Random hot guy for distraction:

Started on my new job yesterday. well... it was a bit hard to get adapted to. and i miss those days where i know who's who and nearly everyone in the office. now i'm mixed with all the names, as there are different part-timers working everyday. 

Hehe. A break from work tomorrow!! YAy. to rest/go out/ sleep

As i've too much on my mind. lemme let lose some thoughts:

♪ Julia's going for an interview tmr! All the best!

♪ I'm sick of a certain person who irritates me no end. Yet i find him easy to talk to..

♪ I must not forget Seeta's birthday (24 August) Amazing that we're talking to each other after 2 years of silence

♪ Xindi has a cute guy near her friend's pushcart. But looks... arrogant from close. argh, image ruined :P 

♪ Oh, and i must disturb her. Xindi is very friendly to a certain classmate of hers. Heh.

♪ To have a very nice dinner/lunch/tea with Soc. Or i'll never hear the end of it. :D

♪ Someone just made me a little happy... hehe. my mind shan't think of that/him

♪ 2009/2010 Spring/summer!!!!

I worry too much. Damn, the stress that's getting into me..

Sigh.  I feel sick of life and work.  I wish i can pull myself out of this again.

And a pretty fast conversation (time's precious!) with a friend made me acknowledge something.. which was pretty obvious, but i did not dare to admit. It went like a very fast campy romance plot.

Me: Blah blah blah (a quick summary of that colleague of mine.. my confused feelings, etc.)

(slight pause)

She: So, you like him right?

Me: (Paused. Pondered. And finally acknowledged it) Yeah.. I do..

Well well. But now there's nothing i can do about it.  I'm cutting all.. 'bridging' (as per dear juz_ana's choice of word ;) ) he had attempted and forget the whole thing. As time or life permits.

By the way, i had never liked guys who drink too much. May he crawl back into the bottle of his. *BLEAH*

Now, leave me as i hide in the cavern of mine - books.

That's the only word I can describe my behaviour.  After that short conversation with him, I realised the distance is getting pretty.. further. The way we spoke and the way we replied to each other were very different.

It's all my fault. I still can't accept it.

oh woe this childish and naive side of mine. when will i ever learn.