I'm at home in this early morning, still suffering from this stupid flu. sigh. Am not going to earn much at the rate i'm going. :(

Projects are a bane in my life. I never can understand the requirements and work well with some people. Oh well, am thinking of it as just another 1 AND A HALF years of my life doing it.

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I feel that 'cause i'm pretty biased against someone that whatever comments he/she makes, feels snide or condescending to me. But whenever they happen to chat with me, i can't help but reply as if nothing's wrong.

I need to be less gullible and forgiving to them. Blame my good ol' christian upbringing, which i can't get rid of entirely for that kind situation. Sure, i gotta be gracious/kind/helpful, but there got to be a limit to those kind of people.

The particular ones i'm really scared of are those manipulative kinds. women especially, doling out chunks of cuteness for the sake of getting what they want. They are those kinds who give me a sense of fear which makes me jittery and finding lameass reasons to escape their presence. The way i behaved can be pretty obvious at times, and some classified it as 'jealousy'. What-ever.

Why this sudden entry? Cause i was reminded of some bitch of a person whom i saw on facebook. A pretty stupid reason, but i don't bloody care.

No one reads this anyway. Ho ho ho.

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Another obsession i need to be weaned out of:


Say hi to Tomo from vistlip(linked to OHP)
[Scanned by metalerham ]

ARGH. i don't know what's his attraction. But can't help being fascinated by him. I guess it's the pose, the makeup, his voice...  Oh, and the shimmery purple nail polish.

I've always thought of having a nice clear future, a straight straight path to the end (what else but death?)

Gah. I hate it whenever the path deviates

I still miss my previous job. Stable, exciting (in a horrible panicky way), and i KNOW my job scope.

Now. I'm still meandering around in the dark. I don't know my manager's moods, I don't know the system well, I don't know whether what i've done is 100% correct.

Sigh.

Random hot guy for distraction:

Started on my new job yesterday. well... it was a bit hard to get adapted to. and i miss those days where i know who's who and nearly everyone in the office. now i'm mixed with all the names, as there are different part-timers working everyday. 

Hehe. A break from work tomorrow!! YAy. to rest/go out/ sleep

As i've too much on my mind. lemme let lose some thoughts:

♪ Julia's going for an interview tmr! All the best!

♪ I'm sick of a certain person who irritates me no end. Yet i find him easy to talk to..

♪ I must not forget Seeta's birthday (24 August) Amazing that we're talking to each other after 2 years of silence

♪ Xindi has a cute guy near her friend's pushcart. But looks... arrogant from close. argh, image ruined :P 

♪ Oh, and i must disturb her. Xindi is very friendly to a certain classmate of hers. Heh.

♪ To have a very nice dinner/lunch/tea with Soc. Or i'll never hear the end of it. :D

♪ Someone just made me a little happy... hehe. my mind shan't think of that/him

♪ 2009/2010 Spring/summer!!!!